Ikigai Second Part
These past few days, I am beginning to realize that I have been dealing with my insecurities by flooding my cart with stuffs... and the bigger my self-doubt, the more expensive the items I checked out. Before I would babble constantly about almost anything... but after my trip from the province, I decided to relearn keeping "things" in "private"... not for fear of being judged nor criticized (because the carpers will never cease to exist) but to allow the moments to sink in... deeply... I would lose myself in my dreams and write them in my journal. In one dream, I was robbed of my laptop and phone... my means of communication to the outside world... In another dream, I saw two of my cousins being murdered by people I knew from the past... I would wake up finding myself relieved despite those unpleasant circumstances. I have let out hidden emotions of anger and frustration in my subconscious. Perhaps, my dreams are not as frightening as they seem to be