Ahuv Sheli

We learn to appreciate life by living it... I was out for a while... hibernating...this time, with a friend who snatched me away  from my ab'normal' crazy days leaving behind tons of work in my desk and my phone mute (for several days) . I was unmindful of the endless calls and messages at home and in the office.  I have not been my 'usual' self since the pilgrimage I had in 2019. A wall I have carefully built between myself and others was torn down and I felt myself vulnerable once again  in the face of familiar people.  I thought that I have outgrown the hurts that I have in the past but experiencing the Lord in Jerusalem exposed my brokenness ~ I started feeling again. The voices I have learned to drown emerged and the pains were unburied.  I thought tears was a sign of weakness (I have stopped crying for five years) . But I  lost my composure before His tomb... I did not lose my peace... I realized that I never had it in the first place....

*Note: Images from the Twilight Saga were all lifted from Google.                No copyright infringement intended. I woke up after an hour's rest... I couldn't bring myself to write, draw, make music much less do my usual spiritual readings. My blog was devoid of inspiration...   I took a momentary vacation from some friends... Midnight, I hooked into music and waited until my thoughts c lea red out... Love Never Fails ~Brandon Heath~ ------------------------------------- He came quietly into my life at the time I was 'ready to receive' love ~  To care means first of all to empty our own cup and to allow the other to come close to us.   ~ Henri Nouwen~ The Essential Henri Nouwen He took me out of the frenetic world I lived in and brought me to his heart.... I felt my pulse come alive ~  Inside his heart resided              ~ the ...