Il Viso dell'Amore

1 February 2012

I woke up with a big smile today and greeted everybody with so much happiness that one colleague asked me if I were in a 'new' relationship. 

by Syed Alfandi Mansor

Well... I am. 

I found myself immersed in LIFE ~ 

This morning, I had my shoes almost ripped off in the train station. I wasn't exactly smiling at the person who did it. In fact, I squirmed my way towards the second floor. Ooo, it has been like this since the day I started working two years ago. The only difference is, people started forming a line 'lines'. I wanted to take a picture and post it as a Friday moment or suggest it to be a part of  our "It's more 'FUN' in the Philippines" tourism campaign. 


I 'survived' entering the train. I didn't even have to lift a muscle because the men beside me 'dragged' me inside. Whew! 


I  (brisk) walked my way towards the office when the cars stopped right at the pedestrian lane. It confuses me that they repainted it and people couldn't use it because there were cars on it. Oh well...


While in the elevator with wall mirrors, I saw my reflection. Oh geez, I looked awful! And I started laughing ('Che pazza!' Is this the face of Jesus people see reflected on me?). The people beside me looked at me thoughtfully and I found my way out of the lift.

I could imagine Him laughing at me right that very moment...

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I am in a relationship with myself. I could express what's in my heart and head with ease. Whenever I feel myself apologizing for no cause, Corinne's post  Everyday Gyaan: Are You A Gnat? comes to my mind and I ask myself, 'Am I ?'

I breathe fresh air. I have a right to live in joy!

I am in a relationship with others. As I allow myself freedom to become more my true self, I become more understanding and more patient with the people who surround me ~ most especially the ones I always come in contact with. 

I learn to receive not just give. Not just give but to give more.

I am in a relationship with the world. I become more engaged and more aware of other people's presence not just in my google circle of friends or colleagues at work, I am a part of a bigger reality called life. 

I exist. I belong.

And most of all, I am in a relationship with God. While reflecting on this, I remembered my conversation with my soul sis Sancheeta. She asked me if my heart and mind were telling the same thing because I was asking God for someone and yet another thing occupies my heart. 

So it always brings me back to my heart check up...

 and there I hear that I am loved...

 and I allow myself to be loved.