Road to Fifty Reflections: Day 52

Resting to Love Again

I’ve been sensing some negativity around a friend... someone who, I know, doesn’t mean to be that way. It’s just how she is. But lately, I’ve also felt the weight of my own thoughts... the shadows of weariness and self-doubt that threaten my peace.

In the past, I would pull away as an escape... hiding from people, convincing myself that solitude was safer than struggle. But this time, it is different. I am learning to recognize my mind’s fragility, to honor it, and to care for myself before I fall into despair, depression, or mistrust.

So I am leaving some blank spaces in between... not out of hatred, disgust, or irritability, but out of love. These pauses are not walls but breaths of grace, moments to order my mind and realign my heart with God.

Even Jesus withdrew from the crowds to pray (Luke 5:16). He teaches me that stepping away is not abandonment; it is a way to return with renewed compassion. I rest not to distance myself from love, but to let it grow purer and freer.

For I now see that resting is not weakness, it is wisdom. It is the sacred pause where God whispers, “Be still, and know that I am God.” (Psalm 46:10)

And in that stillness, love learns to breathe again, not from exhaustion, but from grace.