Ahuv Sheli

My twin heart wrote me a message after reading the first part .  And so, yes this time, I am reflecting more profoundly on 'forever.' We often 'buy' its meaning from advertisements ~ ultimately to stay young and beautiful.  But a sharp contrast is noticeable when we live in a culture of 'disposability ' ~ throwaway living ~ empty promises. While modern technology aims to streamline operations, we create in ourselves impatience and quick fixes. I remember my mom asking us of the meaning of 'sacrifice' and ' learning to live with the questions .' Even marriage becomes a mockery by demanding a renewable marriage bill . Forever in love What is left for those who wish to believe?  HOPE . Children look on fairy tales for everafters.  Novels-turned-into-movies depict forever in the impossible  ~ vampires, witches, magic... There is a dimension in forever that people cannot fathom. Our mind can only reach the physical p

Is forever only a question of the heart? I have always related it to a promise… or to a love relationship… but then I guess, I have to dig deeper into that… " Sorting through memories means holding painful recollections in a certain way. But memory never copies the past,  it brings the past into the potentially healing present ." ~an excerpt from Turn My Mourning Into Dancing by Henri J.M. Nouwen -----0------ I discovered that when my dad had our house rebuilt, it only had four rooms.  He didn't have me in my mind because we both thought I'll stay inside the walls 'for all eternity.' After a decade, I landed back home and stayed in my sister's room. She was residing in another country and, like me, the thought of coming back home was not part of her plan. However, months before Christmas, she decided to take a ticket and spend time here for a while.  I had a self-check and I knew that part of my stress (apart from MRT work