Saturday, April 25, 2015

U-turns and Crossroads part 2: Dreams

Ninety days was gradually reduced to seventy-five ... to sixty ... thirty and now I have less than a few hours to face my fears...
"Bless the Lord, O my soul!" 
May my life be a song of praise...
~ Psalm 103 ~

Three months seemed like a long time... and the agony of waiting will be over soon. My anxieties found their escape in dreams.

I asked a friend to interpret several dreams that I had after I had my check up in January. As the days flew by, the dreams began to unfold one by one... 

The test

I found myself at the second crossroad. I was challenged to re-think my decision of being single because of my condition. These three full months [January to March] I saw how the Lord has opened all the doors for me ~ He IS a very generous God. And He gives us freedom to choose where we would like to go.

The dinosaur was the cyst I allowed to grow within me. The anger that blocked me from seeing my future in a different way ~ it symbolized the people and the different voices that tell me "I could have..." ~ the blames, the hurts, the pains. 

The dwarf is my creative potentials. 

The white tiger presented itself in many ways. In my dream, I was with children playing jumping with them. I never felt such freedom and joy! The tiger came along and even if it were not chasing me, I was afraid. The white tiger was my friend who came to visit me in January, it was the doctor and my colleagues who felt I needed to do something to "prevent" my cysts from growing. 

I have ran away for a long time and I am facing my fears. I am no longer inside the thick walls [literally and metaphorically speaking]. 

As if not to direct my thoughts on myself, The Lord sent me a twin heart to journey with me through this. 

Quote source: Why We Really Must Keep Falling In Love by Ann Voskamp

He held my hand and reminded me to keep putting love out there. The Lord has made me fecund in surprisingly creative ways...

They did not come from my womb but they are the children God gave to me to share my life with.

10,000 Reasons (Bless the Lord) by Matt Redman
"For all Your goodness I will keep on singing
Ten thousand reasons for my heart to find..."


  1. Amen, and again, I say, AMEN! I'm continuing to pray for you, dear Melissa, and know God holds you close to His heart. And, my friend, your artwork is absolutely amazing!
    Sending love and blessings your way! <3

    1. Thank you so much dear faithful friend. I am blessed to have a friend like you. I appreciate all your prayers+ Lots of love!

  2. A wonderful and powerful journey you're on Melissa to stop running and facing your fears. Love how God is speaking to you through these dreams and guiding you throughout.

    Where can I send you a list of my dreams:) to be interpreted!?!

    1. I believe that the Lord reaches out to us using all means ~ most especially in dreams.

      I know of two friends who can help you with your dreams :)

      Thanks so much for your visit Vishnu. Continue walking on the path He led you. God bless+