Ahuv Sheli

The day is almost done and I quickly wrote this on my wall: Today, I resolved that I need not be the person everybody wants or wishes me to be. I realized that I am loved for who I am and not for what I do or do not do. I realized that I am blessed no matter what. Everything is grace.  I have passed the long quarantine wait unscathed.  I have come across fire and was not burned.  I have weathered the storms, experiencing deep calm inside. I realized that I have both the good and wicked inside of me  but I am capable of conversion because of God's mercy and grace. I am simply grateful for being alive...  I am blessed... I have family... I have friends...and I believe in love. Grazie a Dio ... grazie di tutto ... Io confido in Te+

A co-pilgrim once shared that their government opened up a place for them to jog while on quarantine. He said the ennui was suffocating and it was refreshing to see the sunset and walk by the beachside to breathe clean air. Flashback to the second week of March at work, all of the conferences scheduled this year, including our Annual Convention, were postponed. Our head told us to "chill" for a week while we awaited news.  These two and a half months were far from relaxing. We had to stay home together while the "curve is being flattened," and while a vaccine is being developed against COVID-19.  Work from home was instilled.  At first, I hesitated to stay in the house but then we were forced to. The house which we formerly referred to as a "hotel" was gradually transformed into a real home. I developed a friendship with my older sister. The family started eating together... there was more time for conversations... more caring... more praying t...

23 December 2019 " Together we fall in love with God and together we surrender to God’s purposes." ~Bishop Robert Barron~ -------    On our third day in the Holy Land, I woke up with a very bright smile on my face. It was our flock's turn to animate the liturgy for the couples who will be renewing their marriage vows. We prepared the songs over dinner and I downloaded several others as Mass fillers. The wedding theme thrilled me endlessly [til the end of the day]…  The moment we stepped at Cana, I  was caught by our pilgrim guides' surprise ... a part of the wedding celebration is a reception afterwards at the winery nearby. Kafr Cana  The Shrine of Our Lord's First Miracle at the Wedding in Cana of Galilee We had five couples who renewed their wedding vows. My parents had theirs here in 2017. I felt blessed to visit churches under the custody of the Franciscans. The first ones were the Basilica of the Annunciation and t...

Listening to God's voice is always an invitation to an adventure ...   ...to move from our own buffered selves [little soul] to an infinitely wider space [great soul]   ...beyond what we can aspire to or imagine ."  ~ Bishop Robert Barron, 8 March 2020 homily ~ Early morning on the 22nd of December 2019, we went out to the Sea of Galilee and sailed on a boat.  I remembered heeding to the same call  of adventure twenty-two years ago... I felt free and unfree at the same time. I celebrated my independence from my family in this pilgrimage and yet was called to join  a bigger family with my co-pilgrims.  It was never a solitary affair ... not an exclusive cruise for me and Jesus but a journey 'to be with' the  people God called together for a purpose... God took my hand and was led to sing, dance, meditate on the Gospel readings that we had.  It was a call   to ' break free ' from wh...

Excited and tired after long hours in the plane and immigration ... we left Tel-Aviv Airport and proceeded to Magdala where Jesus had His public ministry reflected inside the chapels of  DUC IN ALTUM. Duc in Altum Our visit to this church poses a very significant invitation to lower down our 'nets' and 'put out into the deep...' While it has a variety of meaning, the Lord's personal invitation to me was to unload my burden, cast my doubts and let go of my knowing... to unlearn things I knew of Him so He could meet me where I am now in my personal journey .  He could have allowed a theologian to explore the depths of the Lord's mystery in this sacred place, He instead chose a simple servant to guide us throughout our pilgrimage.  The Boat Chapel I had several boat rides in the past, but this sight of the Boat Chapel mesmerized me. We were finally, finally in the Lord's place! We celebrated our first Mass here and the Lord's Resurrectio...