Road to Fifty Reflections: Day 8

My only sweet escape from reality comes on weekend... at least from official work. Yet even then, I am still tugged by countless strings: side hustles for extra income and responsibilities at home. The endless cycle of 'things to do' is exhausting, but I cannot simply set the wagon down just because I crave rest. It’s like taking caring of children... there’s no day off nor real vacation.

I long for a moment to quiet my mind and soothe my heart… just to pause, breathe and listen.

Perhaps this is the cross I am meant to carry, yet it feels disheartening to see others so easily 'squander' money they have not earned through hard work 🙄

Still, I hold on, hoping that even in the heaviness of work and responsibility, I may find meaning... and in the stillness I seek, a small taste of peace.

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