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It was almost eleven in the evening here when my sister and I finished our Skype conversation... it was fun talking to her and hearing her speak German. ------ The Weeping WALL Three of my intimate friends knew how distracted I was this week. I haven't slept much... I have been practicing the 'receiving' game after the LoA post and I've cried two times to my brother for the 'test' he's giving me...  The invitation to Tokyo was primarily for the medical editors and he, out of benevolence, included me in the list of attendees.   David Bronson 's tweet *The Great WALL: The Culture of ' Hiya ' (Shame) vs, ' Kababaang Loob ' (Humility) I immediately declined it... come to think of it, I never had second thoughts to any invitations... I was always quick to say 'no.' " Oh you shouldn't... you musn't... you're not obliged...please, no...you're too kind... I don't need it....

...I opened up a box I have kept hidden for years… "You were within me, but I was outside..." Late Have I loved You (St. Augustine's prayer)~  Gungor's   http://youtu.be/vxaCs3vRpG0 via Opendrive.com --------------- While this is an anticipation to the next chapters of The Purpose Driven Life, it is also a response to Rick Warren's 20th Chapter on Restoring Broken Relationships. "Who do the crowds say that I am?" ~ Lk. 9,18 NIV I took in a few days away from the net ~ Rick Warren, my prayer partner, intimate friends, work, one-week laundry (?)... I packed up my things Friday afternoon and spent time with a young sage. A few days before I left, I felt a light bulb switched everywhere inside of me (mirroring; enlightenment) , and I began to see the dark creatures that crawled in my being (sins), snatching me away from my focus. My intimate friend redirected  me to the road of gratitude but I felt  wounds opening ...

" You can't be ambiguous. You will confuse the universe ...,"  a dear friend laughingly told me three days ago. I have shared with my him my ' call ' and he asked me what have I been doing to achieve it... Illusions, Law of Attraction and the Blue Feather I have heard of the Law of Attraction from friends. They started talking about creating a positive mental attitude and manifesting it to the world. In fact, the very first book my sister gave me to read after I came back home was on this. " When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it ." ~ Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist . So this law defies 'magnetic interactions...?'  " Like attracts like Melissa. Believe and receive ," my friend added,  " holding what you have in mind in your hands already . Would you believe how convincing this was to me? It reminded me of Richard Bach's  Blue Feather ... p.57 ...

I felt alive with the gush of spring that continuously flows within me!  One of my inspirations wrote something on my timeline ... and I left it suspended the entire week. The truth is, she has been asking me this for a few months already since I started writing about the Hidden Life , "Do you know your vocation?"  I. Period of Purification "If you meet the Buddha, kill him." -Linji Yixuan, Killing the Buddha It is a perfectly strong statement that continues to inspire me to get to know God more. For several years, I have thought of vocation as a 'higher calling,' an invitation from the Divine to enter into fellowship with Him through a religious community. At a young age, joining the missionaries was the closest thing I could ever think of. I felt  'called' to live out a certain lifestyle that puzzled people ...  even myself. "If you are looking for peace, stability, comfort and security... it couldn...

For the Feast of the Most Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I share my designs in jpeg format (with high resolution). I'll be using them for my Satur-dates. Kindly link them back to my blog. *Note: Strictly not for commercial purposes. Download as jpeg via Photobucket.com Download as jpeg via Photobucket.com *Supplement readings on the Feasts: http://feastofsaints.com/stmargaretheart.htm http://www.ewtn.com/devotionals/heart/heart1.htm http://www.thesacredheart.com/shd.htm http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sacred_Heart http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Immaculate_Heart_of_Mary * The Seven Joys and Sorrows of Our Blessed Mother (Praying the Franciscan Crown)  http://rhinoweb.org/wp-content/uploads/2010/02/Microsoft-Word-How-to-say-the-Crown-Rosary.pdf Variations:

Of three things I'm very certain: First, I love God; second, I love people especially the children; third, I complain.  complain,  but I also listen . I was absolutely  positive I will be getting my much needed rest last Saturday. My brother and I were together late nights to work on the fifth issue of our journal and we finally had it released last 31st of May.  I was preparing my lessons for my Satur-dates when my mom called me. She asked me if I could help someone out. I wasn't ready to say yes, my temper was quite short with lack of sleep, but I loved her dearly so I asked how. Someone close had a surgery and they needed cash. I said okay. AND , she added, they need someone to take care of their little child. I was THE nurse, after all. I was quiet for a while... That meant displacing myself on a weekend and taking turns with another caregiver at midnight to attend to the baby's needs.  I began reciting my litany ~ litany of jeremiads, that ...