Defying Gravity


I raced to my seat early Wednesday morning last week. 

As I silently opened my netbook, my nurse colleague took one look at me and began grazing my back... I wasn't sure what it was she smoothed but what began as a sob almost immediately turned into a yowl... 


I knew something inside must be hurting deeply... a slight touch becomes a prick... and easily reduces me into tears...

me in the swing
What sensitized my nerves to react this 
way the whole September?

Was it the famous question of 'efficiency' at work?

... a promise I've been waiting for a long time that was broken? (Epiphany: Sam's promise that he'll visit me in my country September 2011)

... attention I sought and didn't get?

... an unanswered prayer?


I looked into life with so many rules that stifled my growth...

A growing list of screw tapes and disturbing 'have tos' and 'must dos' knocked me down... 

 I grew weary of this journey with so many burdens to carry... 

"Don't Be Tethered to an Ass" steered my spiritual sister Jessica Mokryzcki:

 "If we simply ask God to reveal to us those things that are stumbling blocks to our faith and our relationship with Him He will surely let them be known..." 
http://ascendingthehills.blogspot.com/2011/04/dont-be-tethered-to-ass.html

So, I bade adieu to some people and left some groups...
 threw away thoughts and words that brought me down...
and broke bonds that enslaved me for many years...

God, I wish to be lifted up...

So, I think this time, I'll try...




Comments

  1. sulekkhaSeptember 16, 2011 at 12:49 AM

    Melissa, hope you are feeling better now. Your birthday is approaching my dear and you are going to have a flying start now that you are defying gravity :) Best wishes in advance...hugs to you.

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  2. JANUSeptember 16, 2011 at 1:01 AM

    <3 <3 <3 xxxx...take care girl.

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  3. NelietaSeptember 16, 2011 at 1:20 AM

    Hugs Melissa! Sometimes it is necessary to say goodbye to the ´old´ to make way for the ´new´. Bless you in abundance!

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  4. photos by janSeptember 16, 2011 at 1:29 AM

    Loves to you!<3

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  5. Corinne RodriguesSeptember 16, 2011 at 1:42 AM

    Such a wonderfully reflective post, Melissa. Letting go of things we're used to is hard, but often the rewards outweigh the pain...Wishing you all that's good today and everyday. Love much..

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  6. Manisha BhatiaSeptember 16, 2011 at 1:44 AM

    Mely u gave voice to wt so many feel in their hearts everyday! XOXOXOXOX..lotsa love sweetheart...:)


    God Bless U!

    Ur creation reminded me somethin similar i wrote have a look u gonna love it m sure..http://mani-wheniwaslostinme.blogspot.com/2011/07/my-heart-doesnt-justify-my-actions-now.html

    Love u!!!

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  7. BongoSeptember 16, 2011 at 2:11 AM

    that would be fly my friend fly.....As always..XOXOXOXO

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  8. ColleenSeptember 16, 2011 at 2:22 AM

    I am sorry that you are hurting right now. I hope that as you examine your life and heart, things become clearer for you Sweetheart. It sounds to me as though you are already much further along than so many people though, you DESIRE change!

    Praying for you! Love Colleen

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  9. Martha Jane OrlandoSeptember 16, 2011 at 6:06 AM

    When God closes a door, somewhere He opens a window. Letting go of the doorknob is the only way you can move to the window and open it. May you bask in His comfort and grace as you move forward in the life He is unfolding for you!

    Blessings, my dear!

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  10. sancheeta biswasSeptember 16, 2011 at 10:00 AM

    rise and uplift your soul, travel to heights that you never tried before. i am sure you can.

    love and hugs.

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  11. TamekaSeptember 16, 2011 at 10:51 AM

    I'm sad that you're hurting, but I know it is only temporary mamita. Keep expressing yourself as it is cleansing. Hugs, prayers and blessings to you Melissa.

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  12. Mary Hudak-Collins livingthescripture.comSeptember 16, 2011 at 7:29 PM

    Beautiful post Melissa :) Continue to 'defy gravity'!

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  13. AlfandiSeptember 17, 2011 at 2:43 AM

    Happy Birthday..have a good one when you are down from the heavens..

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  14. Mari Sterling WilburSeptember 17, 2011 at 3:15 AM

    Beautiful and honest post! I hope you are well. Out with the old, in with the new, and so begins a new birth year. May it be a excellent one!

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  15. JIMSeptember 19, 2011 at 11:27 PM

    Fly little bird fly!! You are worth so much to this earth you just need to realize it. Your so honest in this post it is really wonderful!!! I

    http://jpweddingphotograpy.blogspot.com/2011/09/photographing-color-bluemagnificent.html

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  16. UnknownSeptember 21, 2011 at 10:53 AM

    Love the song and the pictures:)

    http://itstigertime.blogspot.com/

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