YOU

We've started out as friends but even then, I already considered you as my most intimate. Have you ever noticed that I had a crush on you? I was your biggest fan... You were my confidant, spiritual director, confessor... so you had an edge among our co-travellers...  I guess because you knew how to read other people's hearts... and we'd often find ourselves thinking and saying the same things over our chatboards... having that "rainbow connection"---we're both lovers and dreamers... you paved the way to my inner freedom... sincerity towards my innermost thoughts and feelings... you often asked me when I will ever get to bow out of the scene... as if to tell me to live my life away from the screen for a while ---- some people call the house an asylum but here I find my peace among my books and my virtual friends ---- hey, but I did... do you remember when I went to Malaysia after I cried my heart out for... you know who...I was devastated... broken-hearted...

You used to chat with me once in a while... but after I came back to Malaysia, we communicated more often... and I found myself counting the days... looking forward to Saturdays and Sundays when you're at home... so we could share more of life's everyday events... over fish burgers and love songs... charlotte's web and ratatouille... politics and religion... God...

What I'm most grateful about is you've taken me away from my fears... in a way you've healed me of my relationship with my dad...

I felt loved by you... completely... totally... and... know what?

I'VE LOVED YOU from the moment we met...  

this relationship is made in Heaven...


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  1. JIMMarch 11, 2011 at 11:45 PM

    Whoever your speaking to is one lucky person.. I really enjoyed your writing.
    You speak from the heart thereby reaching other peoples heart
    http://jpweddingphotograpy.blogspot.com/2011/03/free-form-friday-images-from-weddings.html

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