Road to Fifty Reflections: Day 40

When Everything Feels Blah

There are days when everything just feels dull ... when faith feels dry, prayers feel heavy and I’m left wondering where the spark went.

Maybe this is God’s quiet invitation to surrender again... to let go of the resentments I’ve tucked away, the disappointments I’ve tried to ignore, the fears and anxieties I keep carrying.

Maybe the blah is not emptiness but a space where He wants to meet me, heal me and remind me that I don’t have to keep holding everything together.

So, Lord, I come to You with all that feels stuck and silent. Help me face what I’ve been avoiding. Heal the heaviness I cannot name. Teach me to rest, to trust, to find joy again... not in the noise of life but in the nearness of Your love.

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